This month, in recognition of World Mental Health Day , I’ll be sharing 30 snippets from my book, All My Heroes Are Weirdos.
It’s a story about a lot of things; about love and life and dreams, but more than anything, it’s a story about how I lost my mind, and how I found it again – hidden where it had always been. A mind that went from one of great strength and assertion to one of complete and utter weakness; a deluded, tortured mind.
It’s about a journey I went on, a trillion serendipitous moments that on their own look like a series of tiny coincidences, yet, as the story unfolds, every star emanates in the form of a character, a glance, a smile, a word uttered, a move made, a feeling felt and all play a role in this clever little script that is life.
The dramatic ups and downs, the hailstorms of hostility and the worry that today could be another break-up was taking its toll on my health. My hair had been thinning for a while but it had begun falling out in cancerous clumps every time I took a shower. My face was drawn and withered and there were bags under my eyes no matter how many nine hour sleeps I got. My body was constantly on red alert and my muscles were forever tensed, I was heating up like a human kettle about to boil and blow my lid off.
After every argument, an itchy rash would appear on my stomach and all over my wrists. I was allergic to his words. A huge bulge had appeared in my throat and it clicked every time I swallowed. My body was breaking down, begging for me to leave him, but still I ignored it. I knew it was destroying me, I knew the damage my thoughts were doing to my body, but the more I worried the worse it got. Until one day it all became too much – and I cracked.
Yernasia Quorelios 7 October 2019
ON ‘QUICK FIX’
◇ – Diamond Hard – ◇
♡ We Have Our CHOICES!!! EveryOne especially when it FEELS!!! like WE HAVE NO CHOICE!!!…it’s Crystal Clear Clarity that We CHOOSE!!! either Long Term Permanent Fixes or Short Term Temporary Fixes; for example, Short Term Temporary Fixes Include but ARE NOT!!! Limited To:
♤ Drugs, Drink, Other Substances and TV
♤ Undermining and Controlling Behaviour
♤ Meditation, Chanting, Praying and Gym
♤ Bad Moods like Raging and Depression
♤ Addiction, Exercise, Excuses and Denial
♤ Suppression, Delusion and Repression
…which I THINK!!! from a Place of Care, Kindness and Compassion is ALL DUMB AS!!! however if We Admit, Acknowledge and Address Our MMHI (Multiple Mental Health Issues) an Awesome Journey Begins; an Eclectic Journey that’s NOT!!! always pleasant but WORTH EVERY MOMENT!!! because it’s a Long Term Permanent Fix that has The Consequent Outcome of Permanent PAT (Patience Acceptance Tolerance) and Staying in STEP (Serenity Tranquility Equilibria Placidity)…
◇ – Diamond Hard – ◇
…♡♡♡…
Katie Roche 7 October 2019
I think most of us can relate to post break-up pain, but sharing your experience of both the physical and mental symptoms we can endure from such happenings in one’s life highlights the importance of how our minds can go from one day being our greatest strength to next becoming our own worst enemy, where our spiralling thoughts can cause not only the mental struggles but also physical symptoms too.
Mental health is not always blind, there are the physical elements and reactions which can occur, just as you mention. Opening up and talking about what’s going on inside and out can help lead us to the path of return or even recreation; stronger, healthier and better.
We can’t wait to read your book!
Much love
Kate x
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